Wednesday, September 25, 2013

A Work in Progress, A Commission, and Why I do Art

Hello Blog Friends!
We are now in Arizona! Today we got to visit the amazing Hoover Dam and Grand Canyon. I'm a little under the weather since my fall allergies have caught up with me. Since there isn't a huge seasonal shift between summer and fall in Hawaii I haven't dealt with them in a while. Also, we're traveling through some very different climates. I've definitely gotten plenty of inspiration for new works on this trip. I want to play around with the idea of night time settings with lots of neon lights. Something very dynamic and eye catching.
I also have my first commission. I would be lying if I said I wasn't nervous. It's for a friend, so I'm not sure if the pressure is on or not. It's kind of scary to work for someone you know, I'm definitely going to be open to constructive criticism. This one will be a drawing inspired by a story that the person is writing. I just need to get to work, but it's been hard with all of the crazy road trip fun.
On another note, while this blog will mainly center around my artwork I will also be allowing it to become personal. I believe that artwork is nothing without emotion whether it be passion, anger, sadness, happiness. All of these things play into how you put a piece together. If you decide that you don't like the format of my blog you fully have the right to stop reading. Criticism on artwork is acceptable. Criticism on my life and how I feel about it is not, especially if it's entirely negative and not constructive. Anywho, there will be more updates once we get settled into our new home!

Sunday, September 22, 2013

Head Space: Where I'm At Currently

Gosh, the last month of my life has been an absolute whirlwind. I've been in the process of moving from Hawaii to Connecticut. We're currently on the family vacation of a lifetime, I'm writing this from the Disneyland Hotel (Evie was in dire need of a nap break).
I'm kind of glad to finally be ending this chapter of our lives. Husband is no longer dealing with the grueling sub service schedule, our family and friends will be much closer, and we have more time to just simply be a family. I think one of the hardest things of all that happened was the loss of a friendship. Sometimes you just can't see eye to eye with the other person and it's best to let go instead of dealing with all of the unnecessary hurt. Not any one person is to blame, but sometimes when people grow up they also grow apart. My heart broke when I made the decision to end it, but it seemed like the best choice for both parties. Maybe when we're both in different places and mindsets we can start again as different people.
I'm a sensitive person. I don't expect everyone else to bear the brunt of that burden, but I also expect someone who knows me pretty well to handle me with understanding. When friends grow apart it seems like everything they stand for combats everything that you stand for. When you feel like you have fought a lot more on your end and the other person already gave up it's time to let go.
This post is not to hurt anyone or make them feel bad. This is the beginning of the healing process, because losing a friend is very much like breaking up with someone you love.
-Lindsey